God is tha givah

Some times when my pen hits the pad there is this high that i fear wont last


so i just dont stop until i feel this high pass.

im waist deep in it and i feel it trickling down

below my pelvis like im about to discover something profound

and i swear there is this tingle that mingles

and it's crawling backwards from my knees to my center

its a wisdom that wont let me

and micheal jackson (RIP) playin on the TV  got me weak

cuz his voice is so sweet and seductive are his beats

and it is the one thing in this moment that reminds me

that God is the giver of thee seen and the unseen

including this vibration running through me

causing me to create

causing me to sleep so or to stay up late

now its reaching my pelvis again

when i was a kid i'll never forget

for my family im tried so hard to pretend

that the feelin im feelin because of this pen

is the same way that i felt for men

the truth is that i just used them

emotions were never there and even then

they are easily forgotten when the truth or qhen she...comes in



YEA... SO ANY WAY,

im sure my partner will elate and think to herself that i am great

for all my hard work she will appreciate

as i go in and offer to bring her with me where i am

to this place

she must understand there is much at stake

and the vitality of our duties being

performed without scrutiny

no rather than later because oooooo when i put this pen to this paper

it escaltes the desire that burns like Godly fire

tha powah becomes greata

and tha entiyah thing is bustin through the seams

and i wake her

and i await her

screams

and i sush her

and im thinking

of the lil lady in the room adjoining

her overhearing is not my idea of her PERFECT morning

EVER

n she has to get up early for school

plus hearing your parents just aint ever cool

i squint in the darkness to see my baby's face

& YES i kiss her in that place

between ...

her brows

that glisten when she is aroused

and i kiss her nose

lol, curling of the tows

giggles

tickles

wiggles

intimacy

love grows

society's perceived overdose

there is a writhing in our bones

we are both sure

that God will welcome us home

though most of his believers do NOTaccept

and rarely condone

female believers who love women and women alone